Q: I barely caught a glimpse of the baby. Does she look like you or Carlos?
Madonna: She looks mostly like me, but every day she looks more like him. She has my shape of face and eyes. She’s got his nose.
Q: Do you want more kids?
Madonna: I’d love to have one more. But not right away. I have to recover from this.
Q: Your mom died when you were 6, and you helped raise your siblings. Was that experience helpful in dealing with a first baby?
Madonna: To a certain extent. I knew how to change diapers and I spent many hours baby-sitting. My sister has a son, and I drew on her knowledge. She gave me tons of books, and I still call her up every five minutes.
Q: What have the past few weeks been like?
Madonna: For the first four weeks, I didn’t do anything except take care of her: holding on to her, feeding her, looking at her. Then I slowly started getting back to work, sitting at my desk and talking on the phone and trying to run my record company. It was a huge adjustment. I used to make a list and know I’d get everything done. Now a lot of things don’t get done, and that’s OK.
Q: How radically will motherhood alter your future?
Madonna: It’s a big question mark. I have no idea what I’m doing next. I’m reading a lot of scripts, I know I’ll make another album. It’s exciting that I don’t have it all planned. I would like to spend less time working and more time with my daughter. And I will.
Q: Will Lourdes be raised a Catholic?
Madonna: I’m not really sure. I am baptizing her Catholic. There are things about Catholicism that I disagree with, but there are a lot of things I’m still intrigued by. I still go to church and light candles. The church provides a kind of sanctuary and a sense of community. I’ll teach her about Catholicism, but also about all religions, especially Buddhism, Judaism and the Kabbala [ancient Jewish lore]. My own religion combines all those. I would rather present the Bible to my daughter as “some very interesting stories you could learn from” rather than “this is the rule.”
Q: How will you shield Lourdes from the bad side effects of your fame?
Madonna: I would like her to have as normal a life as possible. I don’t think I want her to go to school in L.A. I’d prefer New York, probably not Manhattan. I don’t want her life to be chronicled, so I’ll shield her as much as possible. Look at John Kennedy, Jr. He’s been photographed since he was 2, and he turned out OK. He had a very strong, intelligent mother.
Q: What are your regrets?
Madonna: I wouldn’t say I have regrets. I made mistakes and learned from them. Most people want to hear me say I regret putting out my Sex book. I don’t. What was problematic was putting my Erotica album out at the same time. I love that record, and it was overlooked. Everything I did for the next three years was dwarfed by my book.
Q: Dennis Rodman wasn’t a regret? In his Bad as I Wanna Be, he details your sexual encounters.
Madonna: First of all, it was untrue information. Second, I felt violated because I did consider him to be a friend, as crazy as he may appear. I know his depiction of our sex life was probably one reason the book sold so well, and that is highly irritating.
Q: Have you spoken to him since then?
Q: In Rolling Stone, he says he hopes you two can eventually be friends.
Madonna: [Laughs] Right. I ihink he’s terribly delusional.
Q: In the documentary Truth or Dare, you made no secret about your crush on Antonio Banderas. Was it awkward making Evita?
Madonna: Not at all. Several years ago, when we were going to do Evita with a different director, we got together, had dinner and joked about the whole thing. We’ve become friends. It’s way past the crush.
Q: Has the spotlight toughened your skin?
Madonna: I have a better understanding of humanity, but I’m still very hurt by personal attacks. I don’t mind criticism of my work. As human beings, we have this need to tear people down, to enjoy other people’s suffering. That makes me sad because it seems to be human nature. We’d rather watch people trip on the sidewalk than ascend to a great height.
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